(Gavin and Charlie)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
It has been an eventful few days, for both good and bad.
I guess that is really the way life is in general, full of so many moments that shape us and build us into the people that we become.
Sometimes those moments are so sweet we can hardly stand it. Like we might burst from the purity and beauty of the life around us. Other times we wish we could just close our eyes and let them pass by without really touching us, but that is not the way of things. We need every moment we have.
On Thursday, Aubrey got to perform with the school chorus. They had worked on the songs for a while and even though she was off track, she was thrilled to perform with the group. I love being able to see my kids get involved in things. They are amazing little people.
Thursday evening, our canine companion of six years experienced a grand mal seizure. I am not going to go in to that much (reference my last post if you are interested).
We took him to the vet the next day and were told that there was really nothing that could be done. So, Josh and I sat quietly in the office with our dog for the last time. Moka was calm, almost serene (completely out of character for this dog). He just seemed happy to be with us. We got to be beside him as he peacefully passed from this life to the next. We cried a lot, enough crying to remember six years of smiles and aggravation and joy.
We were able to bury our dog on Josh's parent's property. We will miss him. This has been very hard, but we have been surrounded by good and kind people who have helped make it go as smoothly as possible, and we are grateful for that. Finally, Saturday was Josh's youngest brother's wedding. It was a wonderful event and we are so excited for Chris and Tricia. We were humbled to be able to attend their sealing in the Salt Lake temple and had the amazing blessing of watching Chris and Tricia be sealed by the same sweet man that sealed Josh and I almost eleven years ago. It was a good time for us to be reminded of the eternal nature of life and family.
For the family pictures, all the boys were sporting lime green ties, the girls wore dresses to match. They all looked adorable.
We tried to capture the magic of that cuteness at home, but they must have needed all the magic for the reception pictures because things didn't turn out so well here. Oh well.
Still cute though, you get the idea.
I am sometimes grateful for those raw and painful moments in our life because they open up a spectrum of feeling that we sometimes forget about. It is never fun, but that acute, biting sting also reminds us that sometimes there are aches that cannot be cured without the soothing hug of our big brother, Jesus Christ, and His loving and eternal perspective.
No matter what else, those sweet and sour pieces of life are what really make us.
And aren't we glad to be made.
Friday, May 21, 2010
(This is a much happier video of our pup)
Over the six years that we have had our dog, he has been a bitter sweet blessing to our family. He is a very tidy dog, so he only poops in one distant corner of the yard. That has been really nice (we don't have to dodge doggy presents when we play in the backyard).
He is AMAZING with the kids. They can torment and annoy him and he just takes it. I have never seen him so much as growl at a person. In fact, the only time I have ever heard him growl was when another dog tried to bite me and he barreled into her to protect me.
However, he has had his bothersome side too. This dog has ADHD, I swear, it's true. He cannot hold still. He has ruined more yard and house items than I like to admit. He chewed through a shed door, scratched through two window screens, ate a hole in the wall (that was the day he became an essentially outdoor dog except to sleep), and there had been many other casualties of his excessive energy (not just when he was a puppy mind you, although bit by bit he has calmed some over the years...but you wouldn't realize that if you hadn't seen him as a puppy, he is still uber hyper). I got so frustrated with him when he chewed through the seat of our canopied porch swing that I literally spanked him with a wooden spoon (how pathetic is that).
Still, when a creature is attached to your family for six years you grow to love him anyway.
As Moka started to come back to himself last night he could barely walk at first. He was disoriented and slobbery and stumbled around like he was drunk. I remembered that I had seen this part before. He had these exact same symptoms a little over a month ago when I had frantically called Josh in tears because I knew there was something very wrong, but I had not idea what (I hadn't seen him seize, just the after effects). By the time Josh got home, Moka was fine. The vet could find no problem that day, but now we know.
I don't know yet what will happen. I know that as much as we care for our dog, he is not a person and we do not have the big funds for any major treatments.
I know that he has been diagnosed with testicular cancer already which we cannot treat because it costs many hundreds of dollars just to remove the lump, not to mention everything else (we have been assured he is not in pain from this or we would not have been so selfish as to let him continue to suffer).
Mostly, I know that I have a house full of little sprites who are very distraught because we had to tell them Moka may not live. Aubrey prayed last night that Heavenly Father will send someone to Heaven to throw a Frisbee for Moka when he gets there (his favorite pass time). Parker asked if we could hang his collar in our shed so we could jingle the tags for good luck when we miss him.
Mostly, my heart just hurts.
We'll see what happens.
As frustrated and angry as I sometimes get with this mutt, he has managed to wriggle into our hearts and to become a part of our family.
After all is said and done, we love you, Mutley.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
So, Monday, I picked Parker up from school and he rushed to the nest to help me take it down, only to find a Momma robin staring at him, nestled contentedly inside.
Monday, May 17, 2010
and one ULTRA lame movie (but it had Mathew Mcconaughey so I suffered through)
It is nice to remember how much God loves us, after all we are his kids, and he wants us to be happy. We really do have a great family.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Ok, who doesn't. I guess that is sort of a stupid thing to say (this is where my kids all chime in "we don't say stupid").
We have had some sort of nasty bug floating around our house this week. Parker started it on Friday by throwing up twice (but he did it at Grandma and Grandpa's house while we were at the temple...see the blessings of temple attendance...just kidding).
He was fine the next day.
Bryce threw up all night Sunday. Poor guy.
He was fine the next day.
Josh came home from work with it on Wednesday.
He is much better today.
How is this fair.
I started feeling rotten on Sunday night. I couldn't eat all day Monday. Tuesday and Wednesday I spent throwing up most of what I did manage to eat. I haven't puked this much since I was pregnant (which is not the case now!!!!!)
Finally today I am feeling much better.
For everyone else it is a 24 hour illness. For me it drags on and on and on and on...(you get the picture).
You don't get to take a day off from being a mom.
You still have to change diapers and feed children and clean messes and make meals and whatever whatever whatever else.
I guess I do get whiny.
But only when I'm sick.
Ok, that isn't true.
Thankfully, I am feeling much better now...and Ellie hasn't gotten it (ah, the powers of breastfeeding...thank you antibodies).
I really hope no one else gets this.
It is icky.
Monday, May 10, 2010
We got home from my parent's house and Bryce started throwing up.
Happy Mother's Day!
He continued to throw up all night long...but Josh, being the awesome guy that he is, got up with Bryce over and over so that I could try to sleep. I was really grateful.
Sadly, that meant that I wasn't able to attend Parker's Wheeler Farm school field trip today and I was disappointed about that (Parker didn't care at all), this is the first Wheeler Farm trip I have missed with our kids. Oh well, c'est la vie!
Overall, it was a fabulous day spent with the people I love most and that was a great blessing.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Thank you, Josh, for making my life worth living.
I am very grateful for the day that you were born.
Happy Birthday, Tough Guy!!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Finally, Parker informed me that birds have been eating all of the seeds that we recently planted in our garden (they haven't really, but he is concerned). He told me the solution is that we needed a scarecrow.